dear diaree.
bleaghhh past few days have been rehearsals. i actually sang pretty okay last night (; like i cld feel the emotions better. praying my voice doesnt go byebye again and give me a heart attack.
darlings, we've all come so far.DO DO YOUR BESTTTT go go jiayou! hahahahs. the best part was when ian came with the doggy sitting err, doggy style, on his lap, and he prodded me with the stuff toy and said he liked the play. ahhh. promising.
i'm so bloody nervous.
anw. tania baby is dancing. cheers. aunty charis has high energy. kathy and ernie are MUCH better. kam is the SUPER maid. marcos scene becoming better. donna is emceeing matinee. en qing is helping everyone vocally.
dewei bought honey and pei pa kao and glucose for everyone. we went t settle carpets tday. poor borris he must be abit pissed at us. sorry borris!
OH MAN TDAY WAS LIBERATION.
we went TOWN.
and chinatown.
and parkway.
and geylang, but tts not the point.
so towning was quite fun. aiya anything wld have been fun if you've been suffering as long as us souls. i bought new SKIRT which moo (newly crowned cracks up) and dw say is nice. AND I BOUGHT A WHITE TOP. i know. complete jaw drop right. hahahs. yeah. dewei bought a cheena piang white top from chinatown. heeheehee. wow i sat in three cabs tday.
i think SKINS has shown me a lot of things. i dnos. you knw how sometimes we take on too many things and we keep trying t compromise but it screws up anw? yeah. i guess sometimes we really HAVE to sacrifice. reminds me of my prefect/psl/drama/higher malay times. yeah that was HELL. thank god for my understanding teachers.
i dnos, sometimes i think i have failed as a friend, for not being able t completely understand all the time. it's jst the "times" are so frequent and at such a crucial peak in the play's journey. it's not so much angry, i guess. more of hurt and disappointed. and it makes it worse that dia is not telling us how dia feels. like everytime i broach the sub, dia jst doesnt reply my sms or chooses t go off and ignore it. sorries are sorries, and i forgive dia cos i completely love dia. i hate how it's always ME remembering and reminding other people and packing and calling and folding and transporting. i mean we're supposed t all be in this together. i dnos. i jst pray. sighs.
ytd i realised a lot of bonds have been made. i think almost everyone has found their place in the production. i swear without dewei i wldnt have made it through. and the support of my mommy and daddy and siantzu and rena and aretha. and my teachers who have been ever so supportive. and even my principal who has graciously played such an impt role (: ,the council juniors and all LOVES. and ranjeet. how can i ever forget. hahahs. we took photos. god bless MOO for being such a sweet victim HAHA.
bleagh. my mood is completely bleagh at the moment. haha. ultimate downhill.
go ahead, walk on by,
you don't know i'm alive;
__SMILE (:
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